Rest

So much is happening around me, that all that I long for right now is rest. A moment to steal away from the craziness of life, and to stop and just be. But lately I don't know how to do that very well. As soon as I get home, I'm going to see how messy the house is, and feel the need to clean so that I can "rest" better (without the clutter) and while I clean, I'll see more things that need to get done, and then I won't have been able to rest at all. Ugh!

The other thing that has been hauting me lately is the guilt factor in regards to resting. Because life has been so crazy busy, and we haven't really stopped for very long over these last couple of years, when I do stop, I feel guilty because there is always some else I could be doing (cleaning, organizing, sorting, packing...) and so to appease the guilt I often give in and try to make myself feel better by doing those things. But I don't end up resting. This is a new phenomenon for me. I've only ever really struggled with the guilt factor in resting before while I was in school, because often I rested too much and didn't do enough homework, but now that I am done with school, I can't seem to shut the guilt off. So I'm not too sure how to make it go away. We'll see what happens tonight. I'd like to find a happy medium in cleaning a little but also finding the time to rest... we'll see if I can do it...